部落客搬家。

我搬家了！ 不过是博客搬家而已...哈

每当开这个博客时，我总是写不出东西来。这里拥有太多回忆了，太多人了...

但我又不想删除...总之是不舍得。

所以想搬到新的地区去，旧的看不到为好吧？

接下来就是告诉大家我的新家！

I moved here > http://belletfebe.blogspot.com/

这是这里最后一个发布了，但此放下完美的句号吧。

 ByeBye :)

Be Happy :)

Anytime I will keep my smile to you, those of you were thought me is a happy teenage, SORRY, YOU ARE WRONG. In fact, I was quite emotional every time when I face something. I can't control myself. Maybe as my friends said I was think too much, just take it easy. They thought me won't angry so to take some kidding on me, I know!But sometimes I would grew suspicious, often imagining they were not like me or what? Well, the stupid suspricious should be remove~Not they prpblem, the problem is on me :( Forget it～I have try to be more nature, because I would often thought a lot of thing before I said or I do.However, after senior we will separate, and this is true. Actually I prefer my Junior's friends, MISS YOU MY FRIEDNS.

Where I want to abroad study?

Certainly, I hope my parent can deliver me to Australia to continues my study. :)

I really want to know their custom and to strengthen my English. And I want to start my new life, forget the bad memories. I remember that someone of  my cousin had ask me which I perfer to learn ? Of course I love Music,but the way of Music education will so difficult to me. I'm not a talent so Music is my hobby,  soul and life. I want to have a good future so I should choice Economi and Art (Interior Design)

On last Saturday night, Dinner with my family of mother. 

That's a happy family night, I perfer this family than my father there. Ishhhhh... Paradise vs Underworld. In the same day, I was not careful spoil my Cello ....oh shit! Finally I can change the new one .hahaXD. 

MOM MOM MOM! Please buy me a new Cello , please...I need it:0 ( Avil :D )

Anyway, Suddenly I remember about 2 years ago someone told me in the phone

...........................................................

“ Why you look so ugly? "

I said" What? !!" The word is so hurt T.T

He said" However ,athough you are not thr type which I want, but I like you and your kind-heart"

Yes, I know ,it's so sweet :) But I didn't to accept him. 

Erm, we are still friends, but I had a long times didn't meet him. 

Well, Good luck for him, and wish he will meet the right one :)

****** That's all ******

Sometimes we should make fun for yourself, it can make sure you will happy always :) MAYBE @@

OMG! The stupid examination is coming !! But I'm totally unprepar for it .hehe :\

思想。

这十六年里，我只谈过一次恋爱。

这个恋爱真的很失败，我跟一个（我爱的人，他却不爱我）的人交往。在这一点就已经有问题了。无知的我，差点跟他以身相取。若我做了这个无知的决定，我相信我真的会后悔一辈子。他对于我的喜欢是因为性欲的冲动，但性欲不是爱情的全部。我总觉得他是不会明白的。如果他是理智的，就不会随便的向自己喜欢的人提出“性”的要求。

爱情的起点是性的吸引，但性不是爱情。我想要他明白，以前我总觉得他思维逻辑是成熟的，现在我觉得真幼稚...所以就算有天他来挽回我，我也不会要。他不会是我的过一辈子的对象，虽然爱情很盲目，但就算要盲目也要在对的人身上。

正确的爱情应该是当理想的对象出现、爱情开始后、性欲才开始释放。 这样的性欲开始，我才能接受。性欲是正常的，不必特意去压制它，这是生理上需要的东西。可能有些女孩觉得性很恶，对我来说性爱提供最大的满足，所以实际上性爱是一切幸福的原动力，随着的性的关系使他人更进一步的追寻幸福。听不明就算了，可能思维还没到这个程度。但现代的大部分的人类应不了解它，只知道它带来了满足，而盲目的追求那个感觉。那是因为你没有经过社会的教育学会懂得控制自己。

....啊 够了，看心理学傻了。

其实我要说的是我喜欢上了一个人，可能是日久生情吧？他是我在寻找的理想的对象。刚开始我知道自己喜欢他，我真的有恐惧...那个感觉我以为再也不会来了。结果还是来了~有点害怕，爱情的伤害比任何东西来的杀伤力还要大。理智的我，可能会因为这样开始了不理智。爱情真的很盲目，为了得到可以放弃理想。我现在还在尝试的说服自己不要放弃自己的主见与理想。可能像妈妈说的“世界上有那么多的男孩，你怕你不会得到要的人吗？”我觉得错错错，每个人说经历的事都不一样，所以每个人都有独特的思维。就想您的女儿跟您两个儿子就知道哪里不懂，都是因为经历过的事情，受过不同的教育，加上您们把希望都放在我的身上。所以一切都不一样，我读书能力不是那么的好，我现在已经在尽力了... 不停的看课外的知识与文学。我的思维一直又一直不停的更动。我自己也乱了

What's Post I should call it??

Well well well...My holidays was Damn bored here. I'm so lazy to write blog actually. Stay at home everyday...I'm so late to shopping, I just wanna have a trip.. like climb or go into the forest! I want swimming with the clear river and see a thousand of stars shining in the sky. OH...so beautiful and  feel enjoy I LOVE NATURE ! Can I? Who wanna go with me? I'm not kidding here..Yup, I like to adventure !! So exciting  :D Will you crazy with a girl? I'm so open actually,but my mom always like to control me. I want to have a free life ! So I told my mom after high school I wanna fly away Malaysia to continues my study and start a new life! I'm not worry anything expect Money..Haha, I thought you guy have same problem too  :) Yup, I'm so open I can talk about sex topic with the boys~ I don't mind because I'm a girl! I think it’s so normal in human life.But...I think make love is sacred! So please... don't think I'm a Casual girl. You wont thing I'm like that when you know me.

Merry Christmas is over... BYE BYE, I miss you .. I will waiting for you at next year !! This time I was countdown at Genting Highland. WOW...there are so cold  >///<  I thought there was about 15 degree ... On the way you can't see the street ! I was so scare I will dead at there in the car. HAHA, of course I'm still living :) There were so many people will the red hat ! Ohh~ I love Merry Christmas, I can feel people are kind and happiness...But I'm disappointed I didn't see Santa Claus :( I want touch his big belly and.... BEAT HIM!! ( bad teenage ) HAHA, hey! Kid can't follow ohh ~~XD

Recently I was learning Piano at home , just trying to falling in love with Mozart , Beethoven ,Chopin . This three cute ??boys -.-??? Emm, as I didn't say C:

No any new pictures here :(
My mom said she wanna countdown the new year 2012 at Genting again... Can I say " NO !!! "??? @@
Mom please....please don't ...... :S

I want to share this video. I'm failing in love with his violin .

This guy is Jun Sung Ahn,  he is a Korean American who was born at Korea in 1993, and moved the New Jersey when he was 10 years old :) Forget to say, he don't have twin ～ And he so cute!! haha

SEE YA :)

I'm Back :)

Hello dear blog !!  :)
OMG..so many spiderweb, I think I have a long long time didn't come here...Well, hey spider ! GET OUT !! That's not your sweet home!...haha. I saw a person leave a commet said " please update ur blog T.T " ..WUW..I never thing that got someone is following my life...I see, still have people care me :( so touching..Thank you, dear ;)

Erm...actually at the days of I was not write blog I was unhappy, but not EMO. I just trying to think about my futhur. Trying to do what I want and what I like.

How about my stupid holidays?one word " bored!! "...Don't ask me why I didn't go to have a job. I got find it out, but the people always lie me.I email my data to them, also not anything reply to me. HATE THEM...So I just can stay at home.
No job No money. But I want to buy a lot of thing, like my favorites brand —— MNG & Topshop.
Well, I'm turing to senior 2 .Good luck for me :)

I may go to have a trip, right ?  haha...BYE

怪夢

有一天，

有個穿著白色禮服，肚臍有點點凸、身有懷孕的女人與一位她愛的丈夫在一個自由餐的宴會。

當時有許許多多的一對對的夫妻朋友們...有說有笑的

那位身有懷孕的女人離開位置去拿甜點.....

突然.看見一位老婆婆不停的跑著

她便好奇的隨著那個老人跑著去看看，並且身後也有一群臉帶兇殘惡殺的廚師或管理員的男人。

跑啊跑.........

經過了廚房式的...到了停車場，老婆婆終於停下了腳步。

女人隨著也慢下了腳步，身後的男人也不見了。

她步向老人想要問候她有什麼困難。

此時，有個男人在她身後跑了過來。

她認識那個男人，當時那男的與她距離很遠....當女的想問那位老婆婆的時候。

突然那男的在那女人的身後了，雙手經過了女人的腰間..

（在夢中我以為他是想擁抱他）..事情卻不是這樣..

男人經過了女人的腰間後，非常用力的抱了女人的肚子....

此時女人的眼睛張得很大，肚臍隨著將大的刺激而爆裂....血就像想爆發那樣爆了出來，男人放開雙手退後一步。

女人站不穩而往後倒在地上，腳間流了許多許多的血。

這個畫面不停的重播又重播了3，4篇.....

才察覺到那個女人就是我，而那個男人是以前追過我的人。

因為在現實生活中

我曾告訴他“我不想戀愛了，我們還是當朋友吧。”

他卻很掙扎的問：“為什麼不能？”

在夢中的我已結婚加上有了寶寶，他發覺了我...恨我...想報復而傷害了我。

就這樣驚嚇使我從夢中醒了過來..

這夢很恐怖....很逼真....很血腥....那種痛光想像都雞皮疙瘩起來了。

其實夢中我愛的人是一個沒有面貌的人，那些夫妻朋友也是無臉的.....

我只知道那男的是誰.......

Sick :(

Hello, crazy me..!!!.But feel so sad today. Suddenly I was sick, the stupid virus is attacking me agian.
My families are sick also, at Tuesday night my grandfatter fall down in tolliet ,he just finish the surgery..I think he should rest at hospital in 6 mounth.

However, I need rest now. feel so sad...TT
Can't do anything...
Everyone remeber to take care yourself....