My first tears

Today is a summer day, but I'm not feel happy today.

This is my first to cry about friends and it was 4th times to cry .I was never cry for friend before. 

At the short day can change a lot.

I think Kate is right, when I came to SIA(4) this class, I was cry too much and sometimes was unhappy.Why? Why you want to talk somethings to hurt me?I know just a jokking. But did you have care my feel? At the last last last weeks, I was know someone don't like me from my friend and I was thinking and thinking til now.I feel not happy .I never say you are fat guy or another.I like you, my friend. But Actually you don't like me.....so disappoited you know?

Maybe I was think too much, I feel all my classmate don't like me, let me feel they are hate me. And think someone of my friend is don't like me. I can feel it before she haven't post it at Facebook.I don't know what I did wrong? When I see the post my tears was can't stop...I can't control myself and suddenly my friend Gabriel Lay was phone me to know what happed to me? I really very thank for his attention... He said I was think over already. Yea,I belive him...is my fault, I think over already.At the time I was think maybe is a  mistake or she was mistake what I post at Facebook?think and think....

Yesterday, My another friend Jayson was phone me.He try to let me happy and laught. Thank you so much....very very very thank. You let me have a nice sleep =)

I'm a reluctant to tell other people what my feel, cause I scare....so I don't tell to my friend what happed to me.But today and yesterday I did not....Gabriel Lay is right.Don't hurt yourself.Just say it to your friend ,don't be shy or scare.

I want to know what I did wrong? I know she was lie me about the post....I did not told my classmate unless Kate.Why she was know why I cried for it?...But belive her it will pass.

Actually I not cried for it only, I cried for why the people always hurt me, I did not hurt any people...I did not does anythings.Why?Why all of you like to bully me or hurt me..I feel can't breathe you know...

WHY MUST DID LIKE IT?

IS I DO ANYTHING WAS FAULT TO YOU?

It was impossible...

I scare to hurt another people, I scare to hurt my friends, so I always keep quite...don't want talk too much. 

I don't want to cry agian....God, please help me...

I feel don't want live on the world....

The people always hurt me, nobady know my feel. Nobady care my feel.

Although I know the trust, I olso can't stop my tears til now....

Cause I'm writing it blogger with my tears..... 

Thank to my friends for thier attention....really thank, I can feel have people to care my feel ;)

Don't worry,I will be fine ...